The Girl my Soul Knew and Needed

 

After Beck arrived, I was happy with our family of five. Three kids felt like the perfect number. It was manageable without being overwhelming. Aaron and I must have looked too comfortable because one evening, while Aaron was away on a business trip, I was getting into bed when I heard the sweetest voice say, “Ok, Mum, I am ready to come.” This freaked me out because I was not ready to expand our family. Another baby was not part of my plans. At the time, we were essentially living in a two-bedroom apartment, had no health insurance, and Aaron’s income was so up and down it felt like we were either feasting or in a famine. I decided not to tell Aaron about the voice that I had heard and move on. However, when Aaron got back from his business trip, he told me that he had this weird feeling that we should have another baby. I knew that I couldn’t deny the experience and the voice that I had heard.. A baby was waiting to join our family. I was still unsure about how everything was going to work out, but I decided to move forward in faith. Miraculously, we were able to move into a bigger place and qualify for an amazing healthcare plan. Yes, Pregnancy was hard, and labor was even harder. After everything, I was handed a baby girl whom I already knew. I had already heard her sweet little voice. The Lord knew that I needed this little girl.. Now she is turning six, and life without her would be incredibly boring. She

has more emotions than I know how to handle. She is loving, cuddly, and kind. She is my baby, my Charlotte Ella.

Maddie (from Kristen and Maddie's YouTube channel) expressed my feelings about Charlotte when she said, "When I held my children for the first time, it was like seeing someone you hadn't seen in so long. It was like missing them so bad, and then you finally saw them. You just never want to be separated from them ever again. l had never met them before, but my soul knew them and I needed them so badly. They had come home to me. It was a relief that we were finally together because I had been missing you my whole life."

- from the YouTube video: Confessions Part 2: Sister Challenges, Health Struggles, Personality Tests Results, etc. Jun 17, 2025